March 2012
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February 2012
It makes me wonder
Why didn’t you call me? Because I couldn’t do anything? Because I’m powerless?
I woke up at 4 to try to do the homework I was...
But I don’t know if I can do it anymore. You’re hurting me too much. It makes me want to go to you to tell you that all the things that are wrong right now will be resolved and okay later. That it’s not the end of the world and you’re not all those things you called yourself. I want to cry about it.
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Fell asleep when I got home... woke up at 4am
Wow I missed a lot that I really wish I was awake for.
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Fucking pissed and annoyed and beating up my pillow for stupid, insignificant reasons at 2:30 in the morning. Why am I so pissed that I can’t go to sleep next to you? That’s all I fucking want right now and it’s making me so mad and annoyed that I can’t have it. I can’t control myself because I’m tired. I just want to break out of this fucking house. Why do...
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WatchText me now!!!!
Hate is a strong word.
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My mom's logic is messed up sometimes.
If I don’t eat breakfast, I don’t get lunch.
If I don’t clean my room, I don’t get dinner.
If I have something I don’t want to do, like CM, but it gets cancelled and it’s possible for me to do something else that’s fun (band in this case) because that time has opened up, I still can’t go do the “fun” thing because I was previously...
For the first time in a really long time I...
Ironic?
oh for the love of christ
irodori-oreo:
let it be friday night rehearsal
let it be saturday competition
7th period drumline
6th period concert band
0 period AM
let it be summer music camp
let it be marching season
let me get away from everything else and do the one thing that i truly love
(i have to be a music major because i can’t do anything else)
I'm worried about you
I hope you’re alright. Call me or text me. I’m here if you want to talk or if you want to hear me talk or if you just want to sit in silence knowing that I’m sitting there silently on the phone with you as well. I hope you’re alright.
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That's all I have to show for it?
I'm so fucking angry at fucking everything.
awlif h;aoewhadlxh v;lIß∫√’ 9 AETHIOS JKLW4EZ/SDFH B]0AEW8[ FUZDKJV ALSKF JH I could fucking break a tree in half. Fuck.
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I can't do it.
I don’t know how to leave you alone. How can I go and hang out with other people… without you… if it’s not what I want?
I feel so stupid because this is basically ruining the end of my day. It’s torturing me. But it shouldn’t. It should be one of the most insignificant things and I’m just making a big deal out of it.
I don’t know what to...
I'm fucking up so badly.
Everything
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I had a realization today.
It never occurred to me that this was all my fault until today. Especially the argument. If it weren’t for my selfishness, that wouldn’t be happening right now.
I never wanted to be the clingy guy who blows off his friends for the girl but I realized that that’s me. I’m the very thing I didn’t want to be. I know my friends are important. I value them. But that...
I attempted to practice my piano pieces 5 days before my test and failed. Miserably. I can’t do this. But I guess it’s okay because at least I’m confident in something - failing. I don’t even care about failing though. Sure I’m still going to be super nervous and unprepared but more than that I’m just disappointed in myself. This is all my fault. I had a whole...
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I wish I could just get over with CM so I can stop worrying about it.
I can understand why my mom has been so naggy and...
I’ve been fucking up a lot recently.
It’s so annoying being a teenager because it makes everything so much harder. We don’t try to but we overdramatize things. And we have problems with parents. Especially moms.
She can be so freakin’ annoying.
Just finished reading
The Statistical Probability of Love At First sight and damn, it was such a good book.
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“No one is useless in this world, who lightens the burden of it for any one else.”
– Our Mutual Friend (Charles Dickens) 